From Desperate Need for Love and Acceptance to Self-Love and Self-Acceptance

There is no such thing as true love or eternal love at least that’s what I believed. We are living beings, we are born and as well, supposed to die and if the connection with our own body is not permanent, how can a connection or feeling for someone else can last forever?

As I grew older, I knew I craved to be loved eternally and to be irreplaceable. Despite my logic, I craved to be loved and appreciated by everyone, especially the one whom I loved. Though, I used to wonder, if that is possible?

My heart wanted something that my mind never understood. There was a constant battle within me all the time. My brain keeps saying there is no ‘the one’ and my heart keeps wanting ‘the one’. Despite my logical mind, I accepted that I want to be accepted and loved by ‘the one’ and I keep projecting that ‘the one’ on someone I find attractive.

My whole life I have wanted everyone to accept me for who I am but only recently I realized, I never really accepted myself. I have always wanted everyone to love me but in reality, I did not even like myself enough. I wanted everyone to choose me because if they picked me even when I don’t deserve it, that means they love me.

I was waiting for my parents approval and then my lovers. I wanted them to pick me…